Sudden craving to blog!

Well school starts in... I don't know, 6 days? I am verily so not looking forward to next year because of the following reasons:

1. O levels. Self explainatory.
2. Major lectures from teachers because of it.
3. Major self-study because group studies, even though enjoyable, are majorly distracting.
4. Need. Chinese. Tuition. Eeep.

The thing is hor, I really don't mind going to school... It's the place I hate because there is nothing else for me to look forward to in the country. I can't go out alone as much anymore because of the Os, and that means I can't go to town often, which results in lesser arts experience which results in major emotion fail.

Plus plus, Ms Nah isn't teaching us El anymore.

Blah. Major blah. And Mrs Mani will be taking half of our days cause she's taking E maths also and truthfully I love her and she can be awesome if she is on a stable mood (: RLY MRS MANI I AM NOT JOKING it's just that I don't really like the subjects you teach even though I know I need to improve so I guess I really cannot go out la le sigh.

On to happier things, I'm reading a book called laskar pelangi which is part of a tetralogy (other tetralogies like Twilight sucks blood. Sorry for the pun) it's a really nice book about a true story about a guy who came from my grandma's hometown made it all the way to Paris even though he was majorly poor but it's the heartwarmingest story everrrrr.

When I was asked in chinese B oral what my favourite movie was I didn't have to think twice and I automatically went into my train of chinese-mix-english non stop speech. I didn't pass la but it was really fun.

Ok I've lost my craving because I'm sick right nao so bye.

I hate the way time flies so fast. A minute you're enjoying a piece of cake then the next minute it's finished. What seemed like only a month ago when I was canoeing in Bali is actually a year ago. I thought I was only twelve last year.

It sucks especially if you're so far away from your family... Every second with them will count and a week will go by like a day and a month like two. So if you can stop to emphatise people for a while, you'll start to learn that your family isn't so bad afterall (unless, of course, you are abused or something. If that's the case please find help).

Take it from someone who knows and stop complaining about how naggy yadda yadda is. Really, it's annoying.

I am Weiling and I am awesome! :D

ZOMGWTF

THERE IS JUSTICE IN THE WORLD! JING TING NOW YOU CAN GO AND FLIRT WITH HIM!

Ok that's my update bye!!!!!!!

Where these places and these faces are getting old,

I'm going home.

"To the place where I belong, where your love has always been enough for me,"

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Consider yourself lucky if you are at home now because it sucks feeling homesick. It sucks big time. Trust me. I cannot wait for November to come.

A reason to start over anew

If there is one thing I can't tolerate besides women who seduce attached men, it's men who cheat on their partners. That should never be justified because... well just because it's wrong. It's hurting ALL the parties of the three way relationship.

But what if, just what if that guy comes up to you and begs for forgiveness and this is quite a bit of a surprise because well, this guy is more of the arrogant type? What are you to do? Believe him, or become seriously mad and continue staying mad until the day that he dies and only to regret it later? Is it worth forgiving, or is it worth not forgiving?

I don't know and I'm finding the answer myself. Don't ask. I only have two more weeks to endure here. Then I'll be going for a two month holiday. I wish I can say that I'm going to miss this place but I can't. I'd be a filthy hypocrite, so I'll just say it's going to suck missing Naj's and WL's birthday. And Jing Ting although I'm not exactly close to her.

I'm supposed to start revision for physics now but I need to channel my emotions and thoughts somewhere else before I can fully concentrate, so here I am. Exhausted.

Zhi Zheng, for the first time since our friendship started, I (can't believe I'm saying this) feel for you.

activate self esteem.

So many people are crying, but no one's listening.

Jane, be a doctor, they're magnanimous. Don't you want to be nice to people? Contribute to the society? Mary, be a banker. The money's good, you know. Ann, don't you want to be the CEO of blah corporations? You can live very comfortably, you know.

Don't be an artist, you waste your time, and you don't even earn a lot of money. You don't contribute to society.

Does ANYONE realize how many doctors, investors, bankers, accountants, engineers and lawyers there are in Singapore? AND ONLY HOW MANY TRUE ARTISTS HERE? DOES ANYONE CARE ABOUT THIS? NO.

WE WORK IN SMALL CLASSROOMS BARELY ENOUGH FOR 20 PEOPLE. THE WALLS AREN'T PAINTED. THE TOILETS ARE DINGY. BECAUSE THAT'S THE ONLY PLACE WE ARE ALLOWED TO USE!

GET A1S FOR SCIENCES! MATHS! THEY'LL DO YOU GOOD! STUDY HARD FOR OS! THEATRE IS A SLACKY SUBJECT! DON'T TAKE IT FOR YOUR OS! WHO SAYS THAT LITERATURE IS TOUGH? ONLY PERSONAL OPINION, RIGHT?! ENGLISH IS USELESS! LANGUAGE IS USELESS! MATHS! SCIENCES! THEY'RE ALL THAT MATTER!

So many people are begging, but no one's giving.
So many people are finding, but no one's supporting.
So many people are crying, but no one, not one, is listening.

And you wonder why artists want to leave. And you wonder why there isn't enough Singaporean talent. And you wonder why, when your answer is right in front of your fucking eyes.

A fresh piece of paper

Well, so here I am.

The reason why I deleted all my previous posts is because I just want a fresh start, okay. I don't want to blog subtly or anything anymore. I want to speak out.

There is not much freedom of speech going around in Singapore but while I can, I'm going to exercise it. This, in any case, will mean no offence to any of the subjects I'll be talking about unless I really state that I hate the subject and the subject sucks.

Hah. Well anyway, I'll have to leave in a minute because I have A-Math tuition (SUCKS). I have nothing against Mrs. Mani. I just have something against A-Math because it's so dry and it's taught in a very dry way. ):

And just fyi, the reason why I named my blog pencilproduce is because I like writing and sometimes I write with pencil. I'll post everything under the sun here- poems, emo stuff, and basically whatever I want to say whether you like it or not.

I'll also be a little bit more vulgar. Sorry. It's not trying to be rude or anything or trying to make myself sound cooler but I really want to practice the art of not editing whatever I post, and not deleting it either. I've had it with editing truth.

Kelvin was right. Acting is a journey of self discovery. I've discovered that I'm so not loving this kind of lifestyle where everyone judges every single fucking thing that you do and label you and stereotype you. It's fucking wrong. You people can panic over H1N1 but you don't care about SIMPLE things like discrimination and labelling, which can cause war and you jolly well know that. Ironic, isn't it, trying to save people from diseases but not saving them from heartbreaks? This just goes to show how selfish people really are.

Sorry to start off with such a bad note, tho. Enjoy all my rants and ramblings. :D