I AM SO DEPRESSED OKAY THERE IS NO MORE PRIVACY IN THE WORLD THE PEOPLE THAT AREN'T SUPPOSED TO READ MY TUMBLR, BLOG, AND TWITTER ARE READING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THEN I CANNOT SAY OUT MY TRUE FEELINGS ANYMORE AND I THINK THAT PRIVATE BLOGS ARE GHEY SO!!!!!!!!!

BUT I don't think my crush is reading this la haha~

WOW.

YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO BELIEVE THIS!

HERE. AND HERE.
you might want to search for his idol audition too. He should seriously win.

I am afraid of what will happen of us. I am afraid of our relationship and where it's going. I am afraid that if I voice out my opinions like I always do you'd avoid me (like what I am doing now) because the reality is, you are in love with her.

Sometimes I wonder, what if I was as thin as her? Would you change your feelings? Your perception? I am kind of tired of playing second fiddle.

All I can do right now is to keep all this in my heart, don't hope much(I am tired of disappointments) and be your best friend, even though you're closer to her. All I can do is to be here and give you everything I can. I will not expect anything in return because that's what love is. Giving despite poverty. Giving despite anger. Despite being tired. Despite being hurt. Giving everything. Giving. Give.

Look, I have to say sorry if I offended any of you people by not sounding empathetic. This is because I really don't care about your BGRs especially at this age. Sure you get heartbroken but then the heartbreak leaves. You get over it.

It's not as if I am selfish and I cannot be bothered with any of your affairs but it's just that, like Najeera said, we have better things to worry about. I'm not saying in any way that my problems are worse than yours but it's that I have better things to worry about.

I can list it out for you but since I'm so close to collapsing on the bed I will leave you guys in peace. Just do the same thing to me.

life is nothing but a dream

Well, life sucks right now. We have started hitting on the books. I have come to realize that most men are useless and the best a man can be is a girl's gay best friend-.-

Disappointments will always come but I don't need this much at this point of time in my life.
It is so tiring, you know. Your soul wants to break away and move into another capsule, another person without anything this much to think about. This is why I cannot be bothered with most girls who just broke up because I have better things to worry about. Things that will change my life, thank you very much.

exchanging autographs

It isn't doing so well here and I thought you'd be the one making a long-needed distraction, but no. For all this time I was thinking and waiting for you, you were filling your thoughts with her.

I guess I have to say sorry for that, huh? For wasting so much of your time.