@ Carolyn's house rotting.

The worst part of getting over someone is that there's always a chance of falling back, and when you do, you fall hard.

You get reminded of all the things he's done to you, of all the attention he's given you and you just cannot help but fall. It's inevitable. It's even worse if you've never been together with him because the chances are, he's never done anything to hurt you before.

So there's no reason for you not to fall back, no reason for you to reason with yourself and no way for you to control your feelings-because everything went perfectly.

Here's a confession: I wanted things to get better and I wanted our friendship back. But then the minute we got closer I realized that I've not gotten over you.

You know sometimes you wish things would stop, that he'd stop texting you, stop commenting and just leave you alone but when he does, you want it all back. It's frustrating when those little things are present because it gives you false hope but once it's gone you want it back, badly. Because of one, stupid reason: You liked it.

I do not know what to do.

I am seriously amused by the kids in my school. When I say seriously, I mean SERIOUSLY.

Anyway I am seriously tired and I am mentally preparing myself for Mrs Mani's lesson later (GETTING READY FOR MAJOR BRAIN DRAINING) and I am brooding over my phone because Wei Ling is forcing me to stop smsing people WAHLAU U!

And your accent sucks, Wei Ling. :p

WHATEVER LA I AM SO TIRED ALREADY I AM SO TIRED OF NOT SMSING I AM SO TIRED OF NO REPLYING I AM SO TIRED OF WAITING I AM SO TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED TTIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED OF TAKING CHINESE B AND FAILING TIRED OF NOT TRUSTING PEOPLE TIRED OF KEEPING SECRETS TIRED OF BEING STALKED BY WEI LING TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED ARGH!!!!!

Tired of giving my all. -.-

I AM SO DEPRESSED OKAY THERE IS NO MORE PRIVACY IN THE WORLD THE PEOPLE THAT AREN'T SUPPOSED TO READ MY TUMBLR, BLOG, AND TWITTER ARE READING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THEN I CANNOT SAY OUT MY TRUE FEELINGS ANYMORE AND I THINK THAT PRIVATE BLOGS ARE GHEY SO!!!!!!!!!

BUT I don't think my crush is reading this la haha~

WOW.

YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO BELIEVE THIS!

HERE. AND HERE.
you might want to search for his idol audition too. He should seriously win.

I am afraid of what will happen of us. I am afraid of our relationship and where it's going. I am afraid that if I voice out my opinions like I always do you'd avoid me (like what I am doing now) because the reality is, you are in love with her.

Sometimes I wonder, what if I was as thin as her? Would you change your feelings? Your perception? I am kind of tired of playing second fiddle.

All I can do right now is to keep all this in my heart, don't hope much(I am tired of disappointments) and be your best friend, even though you're closer to her. All I can do is to be here and give you everything I can. I will not expect anything in return because that's what love is. Giving despite poverty. Giving despite anger. Despite being tired. Despite being hurt. Giving everything. Giving. Give.

Look, I have to say sorry if I offended any of you people by not sounding empathetic. This is because I really don't care about your BGRs especially at this age. Sure you get heartbroken but then the heartbreak leaves. You get over it.

It's not as if I am selfish and I cannot be bothered with any of your affairs but it's just that, like Najeera said, we have better things to worry about. I'm not saying in any way that my problems are worse than yours but it's that I have better things to worry about.

I can list it out for you but since I'm so close to collapsing on the bed I will leave you guys in peace. Just do the same thing to me.